alive.

im alive.
but you know i feel dead.
sometimes.
i have two people,
i can FULLY trust.
you know who you are.
life now,
as i know it is,
one word.
gone.
it takes ALOT for me just,
to get out of bed.
i could sleep forever.
i wish i could just stay asleep.
and never wake up.
then all of the cries.
drama.
hurt.
even the happy.
i just i want,
to be able to honestly say that i am happy.
you know.
i can't.
not right now.
i can say i am contenet.
but not.
happy.